Skype diaries pt.1

Late night chatting on skype , she’s worried about how her hair looks and im thinking about how soft her lips are. Minutes go by and nothings even said just looking into her eyes as she lays on her bed, as confusion of what my next words will be cloud my mind, I just look at her and see how fine and divine she is, not sure what’s going to come out next but when it does I hope to make her smile, but ill be back tomorrow to tell you the rest

My Jokes

My jokes are distractions from my true pain, see my own family don’t know the stress that flows through my veins, they don’t know that I see the image of my dad laying in the street when I sleep, we tired to pick the truck up but it was like trying to push a a moving train, so I push myself to be the best that I can be trying to fill my dads shoes, and me knowing im no match for that dude, see my stepdads last words was to never go out and give someone your last, but my other stepdad told me to give from my heart and it will all be returned like you went back to start, you might wonder why I don’t you periods, its cause I don’t want it to end, I want it to look like im starting all over again, so the next time you see me telling a joke laughing and smiling, look in my eyes you will see tears coming from my eyelids12dots

Emotional Pain

At night when i write its like a hit a vein all my emotions spill out and i cant control this pain writing this right now the ink is everywhere this shit is insane but mentally I’m fine this is just emotional pain ill wipe my eyes and in the morning it will be like nothing ever changed

Dumb Trend

Walking through the mall with bags in her hand this girl dropped out of school cause she had a big ass in her pants she found her "soulmate" who throws cash in her hand she didn't want to listen to her mom so she became an adult in advance looking at kids today I see the trend will extend but not with my daughter I'm going to put a book in her hand12dots

Women

Women are like a sunrise in a nation at war, when you smile the sky get jealous. Your probably saying im your dream boyfriend but i don’t want to be the one you dream about when your bored, i want to be the one you think about on your lunch break when your feet ache, i want to be the one you talk to before you close your eyes,so im the first person you think about when they open back up, i want to be the one that wakes up with you and greet you with the sunrise, i want to be the one you need to complete your life not the one you want to come around like once or twice. So when i say hi say something back a hi would be nice but a number would be iight because before i get where im going i might have already called you once or twice 12dots

Ambitious Girl

This ambitious girl her drive drives me crazy, I'm trying to stay with you and lay with you shit I'll pay your school tuition and pray with you if you not into hoping and wishing. See i want to see something else in you before i invest in you, because the last girl I dated I hated, I like the person who she is but I'm in love with the person who she has potential to be, so are you my ambitious girl? I think you might be.

I Remember

I remember when I first start talking to you I was to shy to open up about anything about me. I remember the long nights on the phone. I remember our first date it went perfect with a kiss at your doorstep and everything. I remember when you said you loved me, down by the lake while we were feeding the ducks. I remember the first day you moved into my place. I remember the time when you cried in my arms for the first time, I wiped your tears and said I'll always be by your side. But that was so long ago. I remember when you caught me cheating with that other girl. I remember when you poured bleach on all my clothes. I remember when you keyed my car and poured sugar in my tank. I remember when I hit you, you pushed me to far. So now as Im siting the 6x6 jail cell Im trying to remember the good life I had and what lead up to this. And when I reflect on what a good life I used to have I remember you12dots